Tuesday, July 22, 2008
silenced
♥ 10:01 PM
aggravated my health problem today..
after today's conversation..
but it shows me who u realli are..
4 years of rs to you means just THIS much to you..
give up is all you can think of.. after us goin thru so much hardships to be tgt..
im utterly utterly disappointed.. by wat u said n ur explanations..
the change is you.. was it only temporary? i guess so..
giving up.. haha.. is this ur aim in life i wonder.. or is it ur forte..
n u mentioned u wanted to have ur own business in the future..
either its a lie, or its meant to be a joke.
but wadeva it is.. ive finally seen thru wat love means to you..
love means you can get over n give up a rs we fought so hard for in just 2 wks.
love means you can like another guy in just 2 wks.
n im suffering the after-effects of ur first failed relationship.
u will never get out of the shadow of it like you said.
how shit can this get.
makes me feel like an asshole..
for i dunno why did i cry so much these few weeks for..
ur not worth my tears..
when guys fall for another gal, they r called a flirt..
when a girl likes another guy, it is natural..
this is the stupid norm dat has been goin on in singapore.
ridiculous.
anyway, i STARTED the whole of this like you always said..
everything is my fault.. ALL along was my fault ALONE..
you are ABSOLVED of ALL blame alright..
i'll shoulder everything.
just put all the blame on me..
u are too good for me..
ur too high for me to reach..
a peasant can nv be wif a queen.
a crap can nv be wif a princess.
a mortal can nv be wif an angel.
sorry for lying to you,
pestering u,
being disrespectful to you by smsing u in the middle of e nite, calling ur house n ur company.
a mortal peasant just cant have the great sense of what the higher beings are having.
this rs was wrong from the beginning.
it was all jus wishful thinking of my part from the start.
i agree wif you, you have won and i have PROVED ur decision was right all along.
since dat's wat u oways wanted and wish for.
which is a peasant is NOT worthy of an angel.
but plz dun make it sound as if you ever looked back before.. the way you say it..
as if you had thought bout your decision.. when you never at all.
i suggest you change the way you say it
dun worry, i will get my bad karma for this
while you can continue earning your good karma points with the guy
if that is how you look at it..
enuff said..
i'll be the ultimate bad guy and end here..
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kris.. ur lovely..
kris kris kris kris kris =) =) =)
kris kris kris kris kris kris kris kris ~~
and im gonna save up for a klee kai.. too adorable..
from now.. i'll work to nurse back my health n live for myself..
though im not sure if i can totally get well considering wat e doc said..
mayb left wif a few years.. or months? lol.
godspeed recovery.. pray for me.. =)
someone once told me "life is too beautiful to be hating someone"
finally realise wat it means..
rather spend e energy n time to love..
i love KRIS, my frens, and my family~
time claimed what i thought was mine
