Wednesday, August 6, 2008
affected?
♥ 7:28 PM
haha i can see some creature is affected by my comments.
anyway just to answer to ur queries.
1. i nv blame it on you onli. quarrels are the fault of BOTH parties. but some just choose to escape instead of solving it. dat was why it has become like this. y can i think that i like another gal so easily while im with you? ever thought bout it? no. all you can think of is "he likes her, he likes her, he likes her"
indeed i push you down the stairs before but dat really wasnt intentional and yes i also did attitude you before. but have you ever think of the times you attitude me? is it much worse than the ones ive shown to you? is it more often and more frequent than those than ive shown? i can proudly and confidently say that the last 2 years my temper has changed for the better. but sad to say, u did not.
2. of cuz i will enjoy my bitches. its YOU who taught me to. "trust no one. hurt others rather than hurt myself." remember? =)
3. o when did i delete ur post? if you mean the ones in the chatbox, plz kindly note there is A LIMIT to how many msgs can be shown at a time. if you dunno, kindly google cbox and it will assist you there. i dun dare let ppl c wat i did to you? wat a joke. lol. more like wat you did to me.
4. yes you did not contact other guys. but ur mind has alrdy given up on this rs. ur mind is telling you "thr are many other guys out there, and sumore 2 are wooing you at the moment". so what's the difference? i just made a silly mistake, and there goes my lifeline.
5. indeed you tried hard. but humans do err. when i told u i am nearly giving up hope, you clinged cuz you still believe that we can make it. but when i err, when i finally realise my mistake, who was there? no one. you gave me the so called hope, and crushed it instantly. ty.
6. if you consider TWO WEEKS to like a person is indeed very long, den ok. the joke's on you. TWO WEEKS TO LIKE SOMEONE. how ridiculous. ANYONE AND EVERYONE i talked to, told me 4 years of rs, they would take at least half a year or even more to heal. cuz 4 yrs is neither short nor long, and moreover there are many many memories.
since you can like a dog within 2 WEEKS, i hav to congratulate you on ur recovery power. ITS TOP NOTCH. if thr's a award for THE FASTEST REGENERATION RATE, you wld have won it without doubt. =)
7. how many times ive hurt you? ok if you wan to compare the no. of times, look back these 4 years ok and ask yourselves, ask your heart how many times you HAVE HURT ME instead of asking how many times ive hurt you. i can assure you with my life i was HURT GREATER and the tears ive shed for this rs is MORE THAN YOU can ever imagine.
8. u nv do anything to let me down huh? remember what you said? "i wun fall for another guy dat easily if i broke up with you." and "i wun enter another rs so quickly." and "it takes v long for me to heal if we really brk up." remember all these lies you told me?
let me ask you one simple question, IF YOU DID NOT LIKE THE GUY AT ALL, NOT EVEN ONE BIT, WHEN YOU ARE STILL WIF ME, DO YOU THINK YOU CAN ENTER A RS SO FAST WITH THE GUY? im not only highlighting this incident only, ask yourself for the previous 2 INCIDENTS which i shant say for i dun wan to embarass you further, how FAST it took you to fall for another guy? 6 months? 1 year? lol. and you still can say its LONG. wat a joke.
9. if your conscience is clear, GOOD FOR YOU! =) may you NOT have sleepless nights then since your conscience is so clear. haha.
10. did i not say you did not love me before? plz quote me. i dun remember saying so. i jus say you have taught me LOVE DOES NOT EXIST in this world. i have to greatly thank you for that. =)
11. o? ok im a dog if that makes you happy =)
but the ppl i talk to, those whom ive opened my heart to, they know who are the real lowly bitches and bastards. at least i dont FALL SO EASILY AND SO QUICKLY FOR SOMEONE, and also PLAY SNEAK ATTCK ON PPL. =)
12. school is a place for study alright? if you wanna insist that i have something wif her, so be it =) i am too tired to explain to you any further. becuz all along i have told you UMPTEEN TIMES I HAVE NOTHING GOING ON WIF HER. and just as normal friends. some coward do not dare to come out to ask herself and instead cling on to her assumptions.
my CONSCIENCE IS CLEAR. and i do not have sleepless nights anymore, thanks to YOUR TEACHINGS. =)
what you have posted just makes me even more disgusted with you.
2 teachings that will forever be etched into my mind.
i. "BEING GOOD AND FAIR TO OTHERS IS BEING CRUEL TO YOURSELF. HURT OTHERS RATHER THAN HURT YOURSELF."
ii. "EVEN IF THE WHOLE WORLD BETRAYS AND LOOKS DOWN ON ME, I WILL LOVE MYSELF EVEN MORE."
time claimed what i thought was mine
