im trying..

trying.
trying.
trying.







the sky was quite beautiful as i walked back..

and i realize how often i've looked at the floor dat i often missed the sky..







i love u v much..
.. did you know?

i miss you today..
.. did you know?

i was thinking bout u the whole day today..
.. did you know?


the recent over-happening u, makes me feel insecure, makes me ponder over wat u said..
.. did you know?

sigh..







i love bedok jetty.

its such a nice n windy place to camp out and slp.

if only the hdb in sg was THAT windy.







我怀里所有温暖的空气
变成风也不敢和你相遇
我的心事蒸发成云
再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你







so damn mentally drained..

i dunno wat shld i do..

why is this so...

someone turn back the pendulum..

im sorry.

im very sorry..

im so sorry...







爱你错了吗
为什么会受到这么多惩罚
他们说的话像针往心里扎
我心中的怕
不知该怎么做才可以放下







yes. a simple fall that could end ur life jus like dat.

im goin thru hell everyday now. thx to the feeling of remorsefulness and soul-searching im doing.

on top of that, i hav to beware of everyone around me.. "WHY?" you ask..
cuz some wimp make me realize the fact that I cant trust everyone around me. yes. thank you. v much.

sides, working makes me even more zombified.

im like a walking zombie. i cant get to slp. i cant eat properly. and my mind cant rest. soon i'll become an abomination.

but i deserve it. a moment of folly brings you a lifetime of misfortune. since most people only tend to look at the end product and not the processes, the reasons, the first prototype.

that is why all those ppl who dun understand me is so anti-me now. only a few understand and im really grateful. becuz processes, reasons, prototypes will ALWAYS BE TREATED AS RUBBISH N OVERLOOKED and only the final product will be judged. dat's how this cruel world works.
wat can i do? I will shoulder all the blame then. wat else?
thanks to the wimp that is.
hey im thanking you, NOT blaming you alrite? THANKS A MILLION!
wimp, i have a PERFECT plan that can detonate me instantly, y dun you just reveal it to EVERY ONE also?
need a loud hailer or rather a microphone system? i can buy you one with all my savings!
just kill me alright?
since PROMISES ARE NOTHIN TO YOU anyway.
since you like to see ppl begging for mercy.
e wimp must have just did a wink to god.
you are jesus, the holy knight, the RIGHTEOUS ONE.
i am satan, the devil, the fallen one.
you are the saviour, all bow down to you.

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maybe time really does have a way of taking back everything you thought you had..







forget to add another condition of being a wimp.

1 and 2 were stated in the previous post as below. im gonna add 3.

1. if one cant keep a promise, do not make it in the first place.

2. and if ur nt happy bout anything, say it out rather than keep quiet n be fuckin dao.

3. coming up with excuses for or acting blur for not keeping the promise when you are exposed.

a total wimp. yes.







how irony.

i neglected you the most.

and now i miss you the most.

im crying. but no one knows..







WHAT MAKES A WIMP? LOOK BELOW

if one cant keep a promise, do not make it in the first place.

and if ur nt happy bout anything, say it out rather than keep quiet n be fuckin dao.

e combination of the 2 retard facts above makes a wimp. a total one.







was feeling confident bout the test yest.

but today in dejected mood and i think i mite even fail.

many reasons but it all boils down to the same root.

no matter what i finally realise the cruel fact of having bastards and backstabbers in this world.

having bastards like me. : -$100

backstabbers like some others. of cuz i shant say who. : +$100

learning the hard way to trust no one except myself: PRICELESS

i see friendship means this way to certain ppl.

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somewhere deep down inside, i know i still love you v v much.

but i dunno wat to do.

aft certain turn of events due to some snake, i know it wld b v v hard.

im lost..

and tml another test for me to fail.

haha.....

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