i dunno wat to say..

i dunno wat to do..

sigh..







and when i mean starting all over..

i mean.. with you..







at times.. i just thought of forgetting everything..

and starting all over again..







somehow, i miss the happy days we had tgt..

and i really miss you..

我终于知道曲终人散的寂寞
只有伤心人才有







and somehow, i feel empty, very empty.







u came up with the wed theatrics..

and now ur trying to bargain with me..

im sorry to inform you i have to come up with this extreme measures to prevent it from ever happening again.

if u did wrong, and not willing to face the consequences and cant accept it.. den i regret to say so be it ba..

deep deep down, it saddens me









will everything be different?

i really dunno until we try. oh well let's see then.







yes.. im MASSIVELY disappointed..

re-thinking. everything.







im missing you..

and nobody knows it but me.







seems like u still dun get wat i mean.. if i feel the nd to tell u.. i WILL tell u.. if it's just a simple meal and dat's all, i dun see the nd to report every single thing. like for eg if i meet a gal at night den ok i will tell u like dat time, i dint hide anything. if i wanted to hide, i wld not hav say anything at all. and if i wanted to hide, i wun even tell u the truth. i cld hav lied but did i?

with regards to ur skipping sch, i hope ur more sensible as in not only skipping to meet me.. i hope u will grow up and stop skipping for nth jus becuz one module u can skip a few x doesnt mean u have to skip until the last time den u stop. if ur really sick or nt feeling well den ok i dun blame u, but skipping sch to meet frens? to jus slack arnd? srsly its time to grow out of it.

and rgrding ur partying ways, i hav long highlighted to you that i dislike my gf to keep going club alr.. if ur gonna cont ur partying ways now and ur saying that it takes time to revert back. den i suggest we wait till den. if not, quarrels and arguements will be over and over again. it's gonna be redundant if we jus quarrel the same things non-stop.

and i feel by letting u go club, im alrding giving in alot alr. like i said, u shld hav known dat i DONT LIKE my gf to go club. by letting u go, u think im nt giving in? sigh..







many thoughts are running through my mind.

most imptly

1. will u change for e better and cut down ur partying ways?

2. will u trust me n stop listening to what others say and stop doubting?

3. will u start to be more sensible for eg. stop skipping classes just to meet me or even worse for nth?

4. will e same things happen again?

o well..







im thinking..

shld we really both giv each other another try..?

haiz.







why wait for everything to come to this pt before regret?

if i giv u a chance now, ask urself wld you cherish it?

ur still cont ur party ways.

so don't.

don't say it's too late for regrets when i dun see it at all.







did u mention regret?

ask urself how many times did i ask u is that your final decision?

what was your reply all along?

and then coming at e end of e day to tell me dat actually u dun mean it?

how many chances did i gave u to take back the decision?

stop toying with me. thanks.







thx to dawn n vix for acc me to ktv today.

makes me feel that bit better.

but oh well, back to mask days.

where i will hide my sorrowful face with a smile.

我真的受傷了







u keep asking to show me care n concern.

but let me ask u.

where were u when i needed some concern den?

u think jus becuz i sound ok and act ok. everything is ok.

i din wan u to skip sch n such is cuz i felt is pointless and no gd.

but wat abt my work?

nv once did u ask bout how was my work.

did you know how stress i am at work?

did you know how tired i am there?

oh no. of cuz u don't.

sometimes i feel like slpin straight when i come home.

sometimes i feel like quitting.

sometimes i feel like shouting out loud.

but u dun know a thing.

all you know is about you you and you.

u have given me the best bday present ever.

"even if we ok now, i wun meet u tml even if it's ur bday. i will feel awkward."

omg. aint that the best present dat u cld receive?

thanks.

im not sarca. im serious.

thanks for letting me see thru this earlier.

how mature n selfish u are.

i know i also play a part in this. blame if for everything ba if it makes u happy.

but ask urself wat was the major cause, the major factor.

if u cant see it, den so be it. anyway, it's already gone.







so many things in my mind.

yet i dunno wat to say

i dunno wat to blog.

was it right from the start?

was it wrong from the middle?

是习惯，依赖，还是爱?

i really am lost.

but i do know a thing.

i teared. miraculously.

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